Anyway, there's a line from the Desiderada that always stuck with me: "And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should."
I go back and forth between a desire for order, for things to match up, and a desire to live in the spaces in-between, the liminal space, the space at the edge, the non-linear non-orderly non-predictable place where I imagine creativity flourishes and surprise is an every day occurrence.
I'm not knocking the orderly. Look at this beautiful rose. Listen to a beautiful Bach fugue or Mozart sonata. Look at a single feather and be amazed that it is part of the overall plan for swans in flight.
But life is also messy, our journey twists and turns and sometimes we end up at a dead end that doesn't seem to be part of an overall orderly plan, at least not a good plan. There is beauty and joy as well as sorrow in the surprises of our messy lives as they unfold.
Many of us hear or even say, when things go wrong, it's all part of God's plan. You'll see someday. No doubt the universe is unfolding as it should..... but which universe, I wonder? And I have to admit that I don't like that platitude. There are many things that happen in life that I refuse to believe are part of any plan of our Creator.
Sometimes things go according to (what I think is the) plan. Sometimes they don't. Neither is right or wrong. I hope to always be open to the wonder of the journey, with all its twists and turns, even as I kick against the goads sometimes.
And to appreciate the precision as well as the flailing of the unfolding.